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"Everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it."

i have own so little things,
but i lost so many.

the things that were not in reach,
i lost those too.
the things that were not mine,
i lost those too.

so whenever i am lucky enough to own something, or someone,
i will hold on to it
like i was holding on to oxygen
too scared to let go
for i will suffocate
and die

people,
those who dont understand,
whisper among themselves
oh she is a heartbreaker
she was bored
that is why she plays with hearts
and cuts
but do they know
how tight i hold on to things
too weak to let go
do they know
how hard it is to choose
myself over him
to stop shredding my own heart
to cover the holes of his?

everything i've ever let go
has claw marks on it

from time to time
as i see how he look at me
how he despised the messed up soul
that he once loved
i began to finally loosen up the knuckles
to accept
to let go

and he left
like everybody does
but like everybody
his heart has marks on it

everything i've ever let go
has claw marks on it

3;18am

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i should really stop staying up so late. its messing with my emotion. three more days without sleep and ill turn into Shakespeare.